Cialis professional in USA

So where do I start ...

At the age of 17 I had a girlfriend for the first time and at the first try to have sex I failed miserably, did not get high, after repeated attempts and with the support of Cialis professional 20mg online in pharmacy (was the urulogen) it went and later it went without problems and without support, took about 2 months and about 5 - 10 attempts? In the beginning I was also on anti-depressive, which did not simplify everything, then dropped it off.
But at first it was damn embarrassing and my then girlfriend had little understanding for it (now I know that it was the wrong one too) which has put a great strain on me.



When I was 19 then the relationship ended and until mid 20 I did not want to know anything about women.
Then I started again to look out and got to know a few girls but it has never come so far that we had sex. Must also say Cialis professional that I suffered some time (16 - 21) from panic attacks and social phobia and hypnosis therapy has gotten everything pretty much under control, but many think, worrying and this initial nervousness when someone get to know (which is very pronounced with me, eating little, increased pulse ect..) have remained.

Last year, when I fucked up my first one-night-stand at the age of 22, because nothing happened, I knew I was just not the type for it.

So now to the core of the matter, now at 23 I've met someone, I knew that it will not work with security (I know wrong attitude but my shit brain can not seem otherwise) so I'm right in advance to urulogen and he has me "Cialis professional 4x 10mg" prescribed and said I should 1 hour before take half. Said done, the first attempt was nothing, he did not even come up so the other half afterwards and we waited (she does not know that I take these tablets) and later mittendrinn was nothing, panic, and just a whole Chewed and down, but then it did not work, all in a period of 6 hours approximately. She said it does not matter blah blah blah and I was done with the world again.

The next day I am to her and then I have 2 hours ca, before we started to rumzumachen swallowed a whole without chewing and when we've done so because my little friend has actually moved up and stayed up for a while , we were both on the side and then I rubbed my tail to her but when I lay down on her then he was gone, well back on the side, up again, on her up and away and then panic and then left no matter how much, had also quite a "cavalier pain".
The next day she was not in such a good mood, she did not say anything, but I noticed it.

Since november last year where I had pretty strong lovesick my general sexual desire has sunk and he is also sometimes now - often not really hard masturbating, maybe it is also Cialis professional because I really masturbated every day or abre also because I always the thought that he is not really hard, why ect..(now at the time I masturbate not so often, I want to save it).
Quite unpleasant to talk about but I also often have a dildo and a prostate stimulator used in masturbation but I am hetero but I think it's cool what should I do yes only I know so far, it may be that I have destroyed something or injured something??? I once tied my cock, that everything was just in november and now I do not know if that is not synonymous.
Do not get up as often after a get up and also rarely a spontaneous arousal but when he is already hard and I read that if that is the case that it can not be an organic cause.
I have been taking "St. John's wort" and "Sunny soul" tablets for a long time, is that the reason?
I've been cooking for years, now I'm going to rest again and maybe even forever.

I really do not know what else to do, what should I do?

Are not there any medications where you just get a hard one and does not care how nervous you are?
I can Selbsthypnose (because of the panic attacks), there are perhaps suggestions such as z.b. "My penis is always hard and firm"? or similar?
I'm really desperate.